How it started…..
Welcome!!!
It all began with an idea that was put in my head, last week actually. I sure didn’t come up with it on my own!
Last Saturday afternoon, I snapped a photo of my daughter, Courtney’s, cats. I exclaimed out loud to my husband, “ I wish I could send photos to Heaven for Courtney to see! They are just so stinkin’ cute!”.
HELLO.
This entire website, blog idea all came at once. It was what I call a “Download”.
I’ve told myself since my daughter transitioned from this world to the next, almost 18 months ago, that one day I would potentially start a blog. The thought since then, however, has been so overwhelming. Daunting even. How do I share my personal thoughts with the world? I know I will be pitied. I may even be judged.
I can barely concentrate long enough to read a page in a book, let alone write a blog.
( Grief brain is real).
I want people to know Courtney. I want people to know what a light she is to this world, still. I want the world to know what a special, old, wise soul she “is” and how lucky we are to have her in our life. Yes, even when her physical body is no longer here! To remember the —— in her life, all of the vibrant life she lived, not just her birth and transition dates.
My beautiful daughter, the one who made me a Momma, my Courtney Lynn.
She came into this world at a whopping 10 lbs 3 oz. on a cold, January day. I was terrified and she curious and very aware, we set off to face this scary world together.
We grew up together. She was always my rock. My wise one. Such a caring, empathetic child, she wanted and tried, to rescue the world. From the tiniest bug to the environment issues. From the puppy that needed a home, to the young man who needed help learning how to maneuver and survive this world while dealing with developmental disabilities. With that huge, empathetic heart, it became heavy at times. It was hard for her to carry the weight of all the feelings and energy from the ones she helped, worked with or just even came across. Especially as she grew older. She was a sponge, that soaked in all of the pain and love of those around her.
This blog is to celebrate her, the 32 years in which her bright light shone, and also to share our story of surviving since she journeyed ahead.
Lastly, to share the wonderful “ glimmers” she gives us almost daily.
Courtney’s cat, Dexter.
Courtney’s cat, Stewart, on the left, with my Harlow.
The image that started it all.